A conversation between a father and his daughter about Rihanna, Chris Brown and Domestic Violence...
...So what's up with Chris Brown?
None of your male rappers and Hip Hop artists are willing to stand together against violence on females, so why should he? What's up with Rihanna?
Disturbia!!!
Seriously, dad, what'you think about how everything went down? 'Cause I know you called her a chickenhead for goin' back! But people can be quick to judge until they're in the same position.
Hold on, now. I admit I was disappointed in them both. And you're right. It's easy to point the finger when you haven't been in that same situation.
But?
Well, I just think she had an opportunity to use all that drama not only to her advantage but to make a powerful statement about domestic violence.
What'you mean?
That photo of her beat up that was posted for the entire world to see...
The one the cops leaked out?
Yea. I think she would've gotten her power back if she had used that same photo as her next cd cover and called it 'Bite This', since lil' bruh likes to bite females; with songs about dv and rebirth. She would've gotten world respect, gotten mad grammy's, made Oprah proud, and showed young Black girls, especially, what having a strong sense of self looks and sounds like.
That's dope!
Instead she chose...
Disturbia!!!
Next project: A help guide for and about young african american males with topics from hyper-masculinity, buffoonery and improving the education of Black males to business know-how, sexual and cultural identity, and finding a more wholistic definition of Black manhood. Input from other educators, youth counselors, parents, and the young bruhs themselves are welcomed!!!
Monday, November 30, 2009
Friday, November 27, 2009
Summer in November - Images V
25 Things Blacks Still Don't Wanna Hear...
1. We suffer from internalized racism, religious indoctrination, depression, and denial;
2. We think critical thinking is reading ghetto drama books;
3. We got mad skillz with gadgets but can't relate with one another in a manner that's intimate and real;
4. We don't hold our local leaders accountable, and they only come around during re-election time;
5. We still prefer light-skinned sistas over dark-skinned ones, especially in our music videos;
6. We think wearing locks is a fashion sense when it's supposed to be a poltical statement;
7. We need to walk with a pit bull in order to feel important;
8. We're afraid of telling our young boys (and a few grown ass men) that wearing your pants low enough to show your behind is not only tired but sad;
9. We don't attend parent/teacher conferences;
10. We forget that Obama is still a politician, and therefore can't and won't address our issues as directly and immediately as we'd like him to;
11. We'd rather look good than feel good;
12. We don't see hyper-masculinity as a cry for help;
13. We think the empowerment of sistas means disempowering brothas;
14. We don't support our own photographers and other artists, but get upset when they get love from outsiders;
15. We don't question the contradictions of the Church;
16. We make fun of africentric Blacks to avoid PSP (post-slavery psychosis);
17. We think Reggae and Dancehall music are one in the same;
18. We think street culture is Black culture;
19. We'll buy an $80,000 truck rather than spend $10 on a self-help book;
20. We think ethnic and fly is a contradiction;
21. We stand on street corners because we have nothing productive to offer our neighbors and selves;
22. We celebrate the myth of Langston Hughes, but not the man himself;
23. We'll support a singer who likes urinating on girls to the point where we'll even buy the video, but we think same sex marriage is digusting;
24. There's a war going on between Blacks and niggaz;
25. We can't handle the truth.
2. We think critical thinking is reading ghetto drama books;
3. We got mad skillz with gadgets but can't relate with one another in a manner that's intimate and real;
4. We don't hold our local leaders accountable, and they only come around during re-election time;
5. We still prefer light-skinned sistas over dark-skinned ones, especially in our music videos;
6. We think wearing locks is a fashion sense when it's supposed to be a poltical statement;
7. We need to walk with a pit bull in order to feel important;
8. We're afraid of telling our young boys (and a few grown ass men) that wearing your pants low enough to show your behind is not only tired but sad;
9. We don't attend parent/teacher conferences;
10. We forget that Obama is still a politician, and therefore can't and won't address our issues as directly and immediately as we'd like him to;
11. We'd rather look good than feel good;
12. We don't see hyper-masculinity as a cry for help;
13. We think the empowerment of sistas means disempowering brothas;
14. We don't support our own photographers and other artists, but get upset when they get love from outsiders;
15. We don't question the contradictions of the Church;
16. We make fun of africentric Blacks to avoid PSP (post-slavery psychosis);
17. We think Reggae and Dancehall music are one in the same;
18. We think street culture is Black culture;
19. We'll buy an $80,000 truck rather than spend $10 on a self-help book;
20. We think ethnic and fly is a contradiction;
21. We stand on street corners because we have nothing productive to offer our neighbors and selves;
22. We celebrate the myth of Langston Hughes, but not the man himself;
23. We'll support a singer who likes urinating on girls to the point where we'll even buy the video, but we think same sex marriage is digusting;
24. There's a war going on between Blacks and niggaz;
25. We can't handle the truth.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Happy
we stole
ur land,
murdered
ur people,
committed
mass genocide
and annihilated
ur culture
day.-- Osunyoyin Alake
Yoyin, as her close friends call her, also gives spiritual readings. Anyone interested can reach her at goddessoflight@gmail.com
Cartoon found by photodocman, Rod Patrick Risbrook (Thanks, man. I'm sure this ain't in our kids' social studies textbooks. But, son, where's the smiling turkey, yo??!!)
Guided, Protected and Thankful
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
When Dumb Wasn't Cool
And remember when dumb wasn't cool? It was the days when Pan-African pride was not only a sign of the times, but just plain good mental health.
You'd walk the 125th Street strip in Harlem and see all the red, black and green; and if that weren't enough to quench your natural thirst you had the mart where there were rented booths that looked more like typical enclaves you would find at any West African market. There was a consciousness back then that pushed for Black solidarity left over from the 70s, innocent of our preoccupation with bling and fluff that was soon to come. We'd say words like peace, my brotha and blessings, my sista, and meant it. It was an exciting period because Malcolm's bright smile and Assata's legendary words--If I hate all Black people, it still won't stop the revolution!--were still cruising the air, while a young music promoter named Sean Combs was just beginning to make a name for himself on The City College campus. Crack, AIDS and gangsta mindset hadn't made their impact on our hoods yet, so Black and Brown children were still smiling. It was a time when Hip Hop was the alternative to Reaganomics--all about self--and not an accomplice, while Run, Jesse, Run! was the latest craze.
But something happened along the way. Black folks began losing their cufis and nat'rals for look-at-me watches and diva wigs. Wearing locks became more of a fashion statement than a politcal one. Greed was now in vogue, followed by Rappers who had plenty to show but nothing to say. Misogyny, too, was making its mark, so much that my six-year-old daughter was banned from watching BET videos. It was a delicate time to be a socially-conscious father, especially when consciousness appeared to be dying. By the time she hit her teen years, the general formula for music videos was flash, cash and half-naked bunnies. Words like cufi, kente, shells, frankincense, and Arrested Development were now taboo. The new cool was flash, ice, weaves, and arrested development! You'd hear young Black males say they were keepin' it real, while Chris Rock's translation was keepin' it real dumb! It placed him on the map for being the Stanley Crouch of comedy. But folks in da hood only got the joke but not the message. They didn't realize he was sounding off the alarm to put the word out that we need to think more critically about ourselves, that our image as a people was in question. In other words, Black America was at a new crossroads. Not just economically and culturally, but fundamentally a war had begun between Blacks and niggaz. Much like the war between gays and queers, but with the added burden of post-slavery psychosis. Because brothas were now dogs; sistas, ho's and a shiny belt buckle was becoming more important than getting a decent gpa. Then Lauryn Hill tried to smack us back into reality by dropping her mic and announcing, I'm done! But ignorance was far too bliss by that time, so we responded by labelling her crazy when all she was trying to do was school us from another angle. Still, dumb got more publicity so she disappeared into reclusion and let Wyclef carry the Fugee banner by himself.
On Saturday mornings I watch the war reach as far as Nigeria when The Africa Channel and BET Africa compete for attention. One pushes culture and ethnic pride while the other pushes the bunnies. It's a contradiction that can confuse your brain cells, if not your sense of Black solidarity. Like seeing a tribe member wear an Obama T-shirt while carrying on like a clown. Makes you wonder where some of us are getting their sustenance. But then it's these same types of contradictions that are being pushed-- dog, pimp, bitch, crib. All of which degrade us as a people yet we defend the right to self-destruct. So while Chuck D back in the days was droppin' knowledge to open up our eyes and minds, now the public enemy was in the mirror, whether we were ready to admit it or not. Some will tell you that calling each other in demeaning ways is merely a form of endearment. But if you take a minute to reflect on that; if you have any African left in you, you can see the psychosis for yourself. Problem is many of us are either too stubborn or too lazy to change our vocab. It's gotten to the point where it's much easier to say nigga than brotha. And walking with a pit bull is still the best crutch to walk with when you don't know who you are, or maybe even afraid to find out.
I was working in a prison when all this was brewing. At the time, getting locked up was still an embarrassment. It wasn't yet a rite of passage for many young Black males, and the police and court officials who exploited the ills. Some blame the prison system for originating sick trends, including young kats wearing their pants low because of the no belt policy behind bars. But in all my years of helping incarcerated brothas reinvent themselves I've never once seen one with his pants so low that it required him to walk like a toddler. Yet today you see young kats--and sadly enough, older ones too-- doin' the toddler so as not to trip and fall, and people don't even flinch over it. They'll give me a fearful, maybe even a disgusted stare whenever I wear my cufi but they won't question self-debasement. It's as if they expect Black males to look dilapidated. And I'm not just talking White folks, I'm talking us. We've become so disentisized by our own demise that it doesn't even phase us when we see our sons looking so grub. As a matter of fact, grub is in, with retailers offering all sorts of shiny new stuff to add to our detriment.
But niggaz don't see it that way. They call it Not givin' a fuk! or keepin' it gangsta to give homage to those Rappers who can't even spell dilapidated, while the rest of the world decides our fate.
So guess what? The City of Dallas, TX has proposed a new ordinance against young men wearing their pants closer to their knees than their waist. Yep, you heard me. They want to make it a crime to look stupid, since we can't figure that sht out on our own! And Louisiana, Georgia and Connecticut are right behind (excuse the pun!). This bizness of waiting for others to do our critical thinking for us has been going on even before we thought jheri curls were cool. And this waiting for a messiah to encourage us to do the obvious has been going on since the first American slave auction. We've become experts in victim mentality but not in coming together, if only for the sake of unity. We don't like unity if it means letting go of dumb trends and picking up instead a book on serious self-reflecting or, God forbid, Black history. Not anymore. We don't listen to what Brotha Crouch keeps trying to tell us. Instead we make fun of his looks as a way of avoiding the work. But how do you avoid something that reveals itself on the faces of our youth and the questionable manner in which they carry themselves? How do you tell a kid that the most gangsta thing he can do is be himself, with so much pressure to stay dumb? What if his self is based on ignorance passed on from one misinformed generation to another, and that he needs trends to help him forget his pains? And what if I don't give a fuk simply means he doesn't expect to see 30?
The answers are hidden within the very thing we've lost respect for-- our old African ways. The same traditions that were ripped from our souls to control our minds. Like how we used to put Shango before paper, the loving way in which fathers would raise their sons, or how my grandmother would squat down to peel potatos. Simple, everyday things that have either become foreign to us or replaced by fast love and fast food.
When we lost that, we lost our sons. Because it's not cash that will bring them back but the notion that, though it's nice to have paper, it's in knowing your glory lives in you and not outside of you that's the real money.
African Albinos and the Bliss of Ignorance
As if skin politics between pan-americans weren't enough of a challenge to both those who struggle with the burden of having to cope and those who still deal with the guilt, we now have to witness yet another type of ism where skin pigmentation, or the lack of it, is the latest battle of the shades pitting African albinos against Africans who may lack compassion but still have their melanin. This actually started a few years back when parents were abandoning their albino babies, caught up in the hype that lack of pigmentation is a curse. But it quickly got even more twisted when witch doctors wanted the children's legs, arms, noses and ears, believing that albinos have mystical powers. And then it gets stupid, with the wealthy buying these body parts as charms. As a result of this bliss of ignorance, thousands of albinos are still in hiding today, including a few hundreds protected by Red Cross. According to Tanzinian stats, albino limbs are being sold by witch docs for $200 and a corpse could go as far as $75,000. It isn't so much the cadaverous vibe of it, but suddenly Tanzania is facing one of its worse periods in history. A slow-stewing genocide that hardly gets reported. Culprits are being arrested and jailed, however; some of them hung. And most likely from pressure from the international community, if not the Internet. But the individuals who are providing the dollars for more albino parts and bodies; the industry that's pushing the bliss still needs to be halted or Red Cross will have to shelter even more innocent children.
We have albinos in Harlem and Bed-Stuy, but we don't call them albinos. We call them Mark, Joanne, Dwayne, and Samantha; and the skin shade issue is irrelevant. That's the difference I see between here and over there. We follow a code of ethics which dictates that though oceans divide us, struggle reminds us, while the dumbfool who kills innocent elephants for their ivory tusks is the same dumbfool who complains about racism.
I don't know if African songster, Salif Keita ever comes to these parents' and hatchet-carrying minds. Or if tourists understand the importance of researching where such charms come from. I'm almost certain--hopeful, at least--that they wouldn't want to bring back a pair of tiny hands that were still learning how to handle a soccer ball. And what is the singer saying about all this? Has anyone even asked him for his thoughts on it? Maybe his voice is what got him over 12? Is he staying silent so as not to cause uninvited attention to himself? And just like here at home where if you wear the wrong color in the wrong hood, you can either get jumped or killed. Is it that same unwritten law over in Tanzania or Burundi where the bliss has spread to? Does he avoid giving concerts in those countries because it's the magic of his voice he wants to share and not his damn body parts? Or do these witch docs find it more valuable to target only child albinos?
I dig Salif's magic! His duet with Cesaria Evora (Yamora/I love you) is still my favorite. When I listen to Salif I don't see albino or missing elephant tusks. I don't even see the contradictions of Black pride. Just beautiful African music the way a good sleeper dreams in colors.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Typical Times...
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Church Shows Young SGL's How To Love
We hardly ever hear about Church or Mosque ministers who defy social gravities and show love to marginalized populations. In this case, gay youth or what some africentrics call same gender loving since there's nothing festival about beating up or even worse, murdering those we're afraid of. But a Chicago Church is doing just that-- Ignoring religious barbwires and collaborating with a fraternity to sponsor a dinner, in support of young SGL male couples. The point is not only to show Black folks that religion doesn't have to mean fear and hate, but that young couples--young 'gay' male couples--also need a safe setting to learn how to date and not just how to sex. It's all psychological, really. Because when you see male couples in love and treating one another with care...consideration, you then learn to think beyond what your family, your crew and the general society have taught you about what SGL love is and is not; should be or shouldn't be. So for the younger kat out there who might think that his lovestyle is limited to fluff and puff, this effort from a socially-conscious fraternity and a welcoming church is right on time, even if it's happening to someone else.
The LGBT Center here in NYC does have similar functions, but my Black SGL male students tend to feel out of place there, either because the agenda is eurocentic or they just don't relate to the fem thing. This is what makes this Chicago news news. Because it's a call out for those who want to keep their nubian while still expressing their lovestyle. It's also an opportunity for the frats to teach the young brothas that, though there's nothing wrong with being effeminate, especially since it's the fems who kick down doors to create policies that protect all of us, 'gay' doesn't have to mean picking up habits that make you become a caricature or stereotype. Look at it as a big brother fixing his younger brother's tie, showing him to fend for himself, how to ask a girl out...how to avoid touble dudes. It's the same concept. Same expectation, if you consider saving all our young males an expectation.
The theme of this dinner is tagged My Boyfriend and Me. It's to take place at the Fellowship Hall of Hyde Park Union Church on Friday, November 20th. The sponsoring fraternity is Youth Pride Service's Omega Sigma Theta and their contact phone number for details is (703)382-0511.
Hopefully, other fraternities and sororities, along with other churches who actually follow Jesus' philosophy will take this as a call for similar action in their own cities and communities, to the point where a high school principal considers it part of the curriculum.
Put it this way. When our youth SEE love, they know it's possible to love; and when the Church opens her arms, not to convert but simply to show support, these same young men SEE God and therefore know it's ok to pray!
Sunday, November 15, 2009
New Haitian American Writers Group
Just started a Haitian American Writers Group to see if maybe fugees in the New York City area might be interested in helping each other edit our works, get published and meet periodically to build together to help define what Haitian American literature is and isn't before someone else does it for us. Those who are interested can contact me directly at lifejak@aol.com or on Facebook where I'm also putting the word out. Gender, age, education, political views, religious or sexual standing not an issue. Just have something to say about being of Haitian descent and a passion for pan-african solidarity. Of course, knowing your griyo wouldn't hurt!
Friday, November 13, 2009
What Your History Teacher Ain't Telling
Inventions by Blacks
Cell phone chip Henry T. Sampson 7/6/1971
Air conditioner Fredrick M. Jones 7/12/1949
Bicycle frame L.R. Johnson 10/10/1899
Clothes dryer G.T. Sampson 6/6/1862
Curtain rod S.R. Scratton 11/30/1889
Door knob O. Dorsey 12/10/1878
Eggbeater Willie Johnson 2/5/1884
Light bulb Lewis Latimer 3/21/1882
Elevator Alexander Miles 10/11/1867
Fire escape J.W. Winters 5/7/1878
Fire extinguisher T. Marshall 10/26/1872
Fountain pen W.B. Purvis 1/7/1890
Gas mask Garrett Morgan 10/13/1914
Golf tee T. Grant 12/12/1899
Guitar Robert F. Flemming, Jr. 3/3/1886
Horse shoe J. Ricks 3/30/1885
Ice cream scooper A.L. Cralle 2/2/1897
Key Chain J. Loudin 1/9/1894
Lantern Michael C. Harve 8/19/1884
Lawn mower L.A. Burr 5/19/1884
Lock W.A. Martin 7/23/1800’s
Mailbox Paul L. Downing 10/27/1891
Motor Frederick M. Jones 6/27/1939
Peanut butter George W. Carver circa 1896
Pencil sharpener J.L. Love 11/23/1897
Refrigerator J. Standard 6/14/1891
Sprinkler W. Smith 5/4/1897
Stove T.A. Carrington 7/25/1876
Thermostat syst. Frederick M. Jones 2/23/1960
Traffic light M.A. Cherry 5/6/1886
Watch Benjamin Banneker circa 1700’s
When you know you come from brillance, you don't walk around wearing your pants low enough to show your drawers, no matter who says it's cool, because the best in you knows that dumbing down isn't cool and isn't supposed to be US!!!
Cell phone chip Henry T. Sampson 7/6/1971
Air conditioner Fredrick M. Jones 7/12/1949
Bicycle frame L.R. Johnson 10/10/1899
Clothes dryer G.T. Sampson 6/6/1862
Curtain rod S.R. Scratton 11/30/1889
Door knob O. Dorsey 12/10/1878
Eggbeater Willie Johnson 2/5/1884
Light bulb Lewis Latimer 3/21/1882
Elevator Alexander Miles 10/11/1867
Fire escape J.W. Winters 5/7/1878
Fire extinguisher T. Marshall 10/26/1872
Fountain pen W.B. Purvis 1/7/1890
Gas mask Garrett Morgan 10/13/1914
Golf tee T. Grant 12/12/1899
Guitar Robert F. Flemming, Jr. 3/3/1886
Horse shoe J. Ricks 3/30/1885
Ice cream scooper A.L. Cralle 2/2/1897
Key Chain J. Loudin 1/9/1894
Lantern Michael C. Harve 8/19/1884
Lawn mower L.A. Burr 5/19/1884
Lock W.A. Martin 7/23/1800’s
Mailbox Paul L. Downing 10/27/1891
Motor Frederick M. Jones 6/27/1939
Peanut butter George W. Carver circa 1896
Pencil sharpener J.L. Love 11/23/1897
Refrigerator J. Standard 6/14/1891
Sprinkler W. Smith 5/4/1897
Stove T.A. Carrington 7/25/1876
Thermostat syst. Frederick M. Jones 2/23/1960
Traffic light M.A. Cherry 5/6/1886
Watch Benjamin Banneker circa 1700’s
When you know you come from brillance, you don't walk around wearing your pants low enough to show your drawers, no matter who says it's cool, because the best in you knows that dumbing down isn't cool and isn't supposed to be US!!!
Monday, November 9, 2009
25 Things Blacks Don't Wanna Hear....Again
1. We'd rather laugh at the comedy of Chris Rock's film, Good Hair rather than take the time to examine why we still consider 'good hair' as being straight and long;
2. We make fortunes off our buffoonery and vulgarity, and call it music;
3. We'd rather call each other nigga than brotha;
4. We allow our athletes to showcase their mansions and expensive cars without expecting them to give back to the Community and stand for something;
5. We still prefer light-skinned sistas over dark-skinned ones, especially in our music videos;
6. We don't give Solange Knowles--the one with depth--props for doing away with the wig and weave thing to show young Black girls that you don't need accessories to look and feel beautiful;
7. We need to walk with a pit bull in order to feel important;
8. We're afraid of telling our young boys (and a few grown ass men) that wearing your pants low enough to show your behind is not only tired but sad;
9. We don't attend parent/teacher conferences;
10. Our public school system fails our children, especially our males and yet we still expect positive results;
11. We'd rather look good than feel good;
12. We think therapy means using a skin exfoliator;
13. We refuse to let go our wigs and weaves because we love White people more than we love ourselves;
14. We forget that the male version of a relaxer is a texturizer, and that brothas too have issues with their hair texture;
15. We don't question the contradictions of the Church;
16. We make fun of africentric Blacks to avoid our psychosis;
17. We don't know what post-slavery psychosis means, but we act it out every day;
18. We think street culture is Black culture;
19. We'll buy an $80,000 truck rather than spend $10 on a self-help book;
20. We think ethnic and fly is a contradiction;
21. We dis Blacks from other countries, out of pure ignorance and competition;
22. We celebrate the myth of Langston Hughes, but not the man himself;
23. We'll support a singer who likes urinating on girls to the point where we'll even buy the video, but we think same sex marriage is digusting;
24. We suffer from internalized racism, religious indoctrination, depression, and denial;
25. We can't handle the truth.
2. We make fortunes off our buffoonery and vulgarity, and call it music;
3. We'd rather call each other nigga than brotha;
4. We allow our athletes to showcase their mansions and expensive cars without expecting them to give back to the Community and stand for something;
5. We still prefer light-skinned sistas over dark-skinned ones, especially in our music videos;
6. We don't give Solange Knowles--the one with depth--props for doing away with the wig and weave thing to show young Black girls that you don't need accessories to look and feel beautiful;
7. We need to walk with a pit bull in order to feel important;
8. We're afraid of telling our young boys (and a few grown ass men) that wearing your pants low enough to show your behind is not only tired but sad;
9. We don't attend parent/teacher conferences;
10. Our public school system fails our children, especially our males and yet we still expect positive results;
11. We'd rather look good than feel good;
12. We think therapy means using a skin exfoliator;
13. We refuse to let go our wigs and weaves because we love White people more than we love ourselves;
14. We forget that the male version of a relaxer is a texturizer, and that brothas too have issues with their hair texture;
15. We don't question the contradictions of the Church;
16. We make fun of africentric Blacks to avoid our psychosis;
17. We don't know what post-slavery psychosis means, but we act it out every day;
18. We think street culture is Black culture;
19. We'll buy an $80,000 truck rather than spend $10 on a self-help book;
20. We think ethnic and fly is a contradiction;
21. We dis Blacks from other countries, out of pure ignorance and competition;
22. We celebrate the myth of Langston Hughes, but not the man himself;
23. We'll support a singer who likes urinating on girls to the point where we'll even buy the video, but we think same sex marriage is digusting;
24. We suffer from internalized racism, religious indoctrination, depression, and denial;
25. We can't handle the truth.
Bang Bang, I'm Dead!
I am a Black man. I am not allowed to love. I can sex up, dribble a ball, roll dice, and talk smack. But I do not have the luxury of expressing myself in a way that makes me a whole human being. I am merely fragments of myself, longing for emotional rescue from the hands that prevent me from becoming an individual. I do not yet know my name, though there are several words to describe me— buck, stud, mack, nigga; and dog, thug, boy, nigga. Words that limit my voice and movement, and help shape the contours of my masculinity. I am the new version of Ralph Ellison’s Invisible Man, disheveled and exposed for the sole convenience of the media and anglo-centered research whose face is lost in exaggerated stats. I am brilliant only in my swagger but arrogant when I attempt to defy my confinement. I am not even allowed to love my brother. A burden I manage to turn into an art form, if not everyday habit. I am forced, however, to love strangers who keep me chained to their perceptions of me. For my reverence is not necessarily in how I survive my struggles but in the things I never say; things I am not permitted to say. I am hood. I am not hood. I am somewhere between what I think I am and who I long to be. I am everyone’s terror. I am everyone’s sexual objectification. It all depends on how much I tell my mirror when no one is around to judge or stifle me. I am resilient, yes, but not afforded the right to reinvent myself in a manner that reveals my true nature. I do not have a true nature. I do, of course. But it is practically illegal for me to be a man when bombarded with both the sexual obsessions of racist White folk and the buffoonery that comes with confusing street culture for Black pride. These generational attacks infest my natural ability to walk on air, since I am so much more than the caricatures that bind me and far more nurturing than even my sister credits me with. For she loves the possibility of me, but not me. She made that clear when I was but a child, not yet proficient in the language of silence and withdrawing, when she chastised me for crying. She said what everyone tells me, Man up or be ridiculed; sometimes given away. And so I man up, even if it means suppressing my right to simply be; to abide by her standards and unrealistic expectations which in turn helps determine how distant I am with my son whose own tendency to avoid any form of intimacy is a result of my futile attempt to please her, if not reach her. So we both man up to avoid the rejection and total castration, placing video games and gangster mentality over real fatherly connection. The kind of closeness that is expected from all other fathers, except me— the americanized Black man, conditioned to think with his gun and not his heart. Sons do not sit on their fathers’ lap. They do in Cuba. Sons do not kiss their fathers hello. They do in Europe. Sons are not held by their fathers. They are in Africa. And sons do not answer back I love you to their fathers. Not cool. Not manly. Not brolic. Not nigga at all.
I am a Black man. An enigma of sorts, basking on the stage of an elaborate play and all the while not knowing for sure where to stand and how to stand it. I can recite lines from an incorrigible Rapper and fulfill the prophecies of the deadbeat father, but I am discouraged from seeing my life beyond the hype. New terminologies give way to new dichotomies— a baldie, a fade, a shape up, locks and waves, cornrow, caesar, locks. Words that typically define barbershop conversation yet offer no solutions to community denials. To some, I am still the sleeping giant. To others, I am merely in the way; and I pretend to know the difference. If I come to resolving my disposition; if I am given the right to reveal who I am behind the masks then settle it as I see fit, then I would feel safe enough to say that I, too, love and that I cherish the hands that do not exploit me but, rather, provide me with the kind of hold that fully celebrates me. For I am the focal point of discussion at every state of our union and still, my Family refuses to see me. I am divided. I am divided between fleeing into the arms of outsiders who are willing to help me discover my true self and fulfilling the illusions of the very people who named me.
I am a Black man. I am not allowed to love. Just trucks and saddle, and bang bang, I’m dead!
I am a Black man. An enigma of sorts, basking on the stage of an elaborate play and all the while not knowing for sure where to stand and how to stand it. I can recite lines from an incorrigible Rapper and fulfill the prophecies of the deadbeat father, but I am discouraged from seeing my life beyond the hype. New terminologies give way to new dichotomies— a baldie, a fade, a shape up, locks and waves, cornrow, caesar, locks. Words that typically define barbershop conversation yet offer no solutions to community denials. To some, I am still the sleeping giant. To others, I am merely in the way; and I pretend to know the difference. If I come to resolving my disposition; if I am given the right to reveal who I am behind the masks then settle it as I see fit, then I would feel safe enough to say that I, too, love and that I cherish the hands that do not exploit me but, rather, provide me with the kind of hold that fully celebrates me. For I am the focal point of discussion at every state of our union and still, my Family refuses to see me. I am divided. I am divided between fleeing into the arms of outsiders who are willing to help me discover my true self and fulfilling the illusions of the very people who named me.
I am a Black man. I am not allowed to love. Just trucks and saddle, and bang bang, I’m dead!
Priceless!
The best gift from my Before You Fly Off project was when a group of fly girls huddled together to read my book, saying things like Yep, that's so true!...No, he didn't say that!...Why don't they have books like this in school?...They need to let the boys read this too!!!!...
I let go of some good guvament money when I left my phd program. On a mere hunch that I'd be happier writing their story instead of somebody else's. And when them girls showed me all that love, I knew I was on my divine path! I might revisit the doctoral gig. But in the meantime, I'm enjoying writing for and about hard to reach populations such as these here young ladies who do want an education and stable life, but don't quite fit the formula handed to them. When we offer alternatives to youth that work for them and not against them, they give back to us not only stable and constructive lives but smiles that are simply priceless!!!
I let go of some good guvament money when I left my phd program. On a mere hunch that I'd be happier writing their story instead of somebody else's. And when them girls showed me all that love, I knew I was on my divine path! I might revisit the doctoral gig. But in the meantime, I'm enjoying writing for and about hard to reach populations such as these here young ladies who do want an education and stable life, but don't quite fit the formula handed to them. When we offer alternatives to youth that work for them and not against them, they give back to us not only stable and constructive lives but smiles that are simply priceless!!!
Who Did It?
Folks been asking who did the cover of my latest book. It's photojournalist, Ocean Morisset. A self-taught Haitian American photographer, he's travelled to such places as Cuba, the Southwest, Central America and Haiti to bring back the stories we often don't get to hear about; much less, see. Of course, he also tells the various stories of New York City whether it's a young Black father feeding his newborn on a subway train or Central Park's colorful transition from summer to autumn.
He's also the only artist I know who can make a simple photo of a rusted nail look like a friendly cat!!! Checkout his work by visiting http://omorisset.myexpose.com and look for his first photo collection this Christmas.
p.s.-- I actually took this shot of Morisset while visiting fellow writer and friend, Jason Trask up in Maine. I'm better with words, but every once in a while I show my own cam skillz!!!....Peace and gratitude, everyone.
He's also the only artist I know who can make a simple photo of a rusted nail look like a friendly cat!!! Checkout his work by visiting http://omorisset.myexpose.com and look for his first photo collection this Christmas.
p.s.-- I actually took this shot of Morisset while visiting fellow writer and friend, Jason Trask up in Maine. I'm better with words, but every once in a while I show my own cam skillz!!!....Peace and gratitude, everyone.
Texturizer: The Manly Way to Be As Pretty
Since we've been picking on da sistas who still like to strut their wigs and weaves, no matter what Chris Rock says, I figure I'd remind everyone that the lesson cuts both ways...
And one of my sistafriends, Michele Luc--a/k/a urban workshop guru--reminded me of the Du-rag or as she puts it, the poor man's hair straightener.
Whether it's a dude in prison or an upper-crust bruh, the difference being...
...one's social status dictating if it's acceptable to rock it in public...
...or at home where only those in the know can see you,...
...sporting a du-rag to create waves in your hair is yet another form of self-degradation....
...That's if you even consider wearing a du-rag a negative, since du-rags also keep the braids tight...
...But you think sistas freak out when they have to give up their wigs or do without their weave?...
...See how a brotha acts if he thinks one hair is out of place after he's kept it under wraps with Dax and a rag all night!!!...
...He'll keep brushing that shit back in place! Then keep the brush in his back pocket for later...
...when his natural tries to come up for air!
And one of my sistafriends, Michele Luc--a/k/a urban workshop guru--reminded me of the Du-rag or as she puts it, the poor man's hair straightener.
Whether it's a dude in prison or an upper-crust bruh, the difference being...
...one's social status dictating if it's acceptable to rock it in public...
...or at home where only those in the know can see you,...
...sporting a du-rag to create waves in your hair is yet another form of self-degradation....
...That's if you even consider wearing a du-rag a negative, since du-rags also keep the braids tight...
...But you think sistas freak out when they have to give up their wigs or do without their weave?...
...See how a brotha acts if he thinks one hair is out of place after he's kept it under wraps with Dax and a rag all night!!!...
...He'll keep brushing that shit back in place! Then keep the brush in his back pocket for later...
...when his natural tries to come up for air!
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